There is no denying the fact that the blogging scene these days is HUGE. With that growth we’ve seen so many bloggers reach the dizzying heights of celebrity and wealth all from typing away on their laptops in the privacy of their own bedrooms and it’s incredible but I will never be one of them. It’s not something that I feel competitive about, and even though I would like to grow a little bit and reach some more people each month, I’m happy for others to take the glory. They’ve earned it after all.
The reality is I was so late to the blogging party. I was around within the body positive movement back in the day on Tumblr and I had quite a big following etc but when it came around to applying for jobs after university I decided to delete that account. I have regretted that decision since but the account featured nudity and I was confident enough at that time to front it out or explain it to potential employers. We all know that nudity isn’t sexual but one of the major issues feminism and body positivity is trying to address is the fact that it’s assumed to be. As a young person struggling to find a job that account was just a potential for another stress that I did not need.
The blogging world is constantly developing and changing. Gone are the days when you could post a rant of solid text and it would get hundreds or thousands of views. Imagery and beautiful flatlays are all the rage meanwhile – Visual creativity is not my bag. I’m talking photography and graphic design etc. I want my words to do the talking. That’s not a diss towards bloggers who base their work on their photography, it’s just that’s not my strong point at all. At this point I don’t even own a working camera other than my phone and I have no access to any editing software. If you’re here for the pictures you’re going to be disappointed.
My lack of access to decent technology is definitely another reason I won’t be “successful” as well as my lack of any kind of organisation. I am literally the worst at organising my downtime and finding time to write on a regular basis. Everyone is always saying the key to blogging success is consistency and I feel like I’m the least consistent blogger out there. It just can’t be a priority between working full time, looking after an elderly needy cat, taking care of my own health, physical and mental while trying to keep on top of household chores. It easily slips down the to do list and forcing oneself to sit down and write detracts from the enjoyment somewhat.
Blogging is a hobby for me and it’s allowed me to meet so many great people so I’m not mad about the fact that it’s not going to become a career and I’m not going to change the world. I know that I’ve helped a lot of people, many of them have gone on to become close friends, and that’s a huge reward in itself. If in the future it leads to opportunities to experience new places and things I won’t turn my nose up but I’m at peace with the fact that the likelihood is it’s never going to happen.